Sorry I’ve been neglecting you. I’ve been busy: getting a job, falling in love with my FWB, being propositioned, arranging interesting meeting, oh and for a while there I was sleeping too. 

I’ve managed to get into trouble for not completing a requested assignment. I’m meeting strangers for drinks and they want to give me things - this makes me varying degrees of uncomfortable yet I keep accepting… I quit smoking long enough to no longer have craving and then bought a pack of cigarettes. I went a week without Adderall. I quit taking Prozac and I’m feeling happier. I cleaned every dirty dish in this house and washed my linens (freshly laundered sheets are a sin secret indulgence for me). I declined a sadist. I released my sub to someone else (she’s smitten and it makes me happy). I’ve decided to start making jewelry again. My dog is still the cutest thing in the world. We obtained a new bong. My ED symptoms are back with a vengeance. I was forced to get a new psychiatrist and I already dislike her. My new favorite art store is one of my best friends back yard. I have enough twine, string, thread, rope, yarn, etc. to last me a century. 

That thing up there, that’s brain vomit. I apologize but it had to go somewhere. 

I’ll be back to love you soon.
Misses and Kisses,
Ana